Sweet Memories

Every time that I see this picture I think: "we are so beautiful"! we almost looks like brothers... even if we didn't do exactly what brothers are meant to do ahah.

I love this picture, it reminds me one of the best night I ever had in Melbourne, maybe one day I'm gonna talk about that "delicious" night eheh, ended with a win of $10.000 at the Casino!... ok I'm kidding, we didn't win anything!! (even if we doubled our $20 budget!... and then lost everything ahah too funny!)

DAY 400: Matteo's New English dictionary

“Embarrassed”...every time that I pronounced that word someone laughed because of my wrong accent, with the stress of the word put in the wrong position.

But the best from Matteo's English dictionary still had to come... “appositly!”. This word (appositly) doesn't exist, however the meaning would be “on purpose” and I said that for 6 months and Ben never corrected me!

Reading this, you can easily think that Ben doesn't listen to me at all (even if sometimes it might be good not to listen to me and my complex reasonings); anyway I think there were too many mistakes in my speech, so it wouldn't have changed much correcting one more or one less!

Many times I made up my own word just guessing... trying to adapt the Italian root of the words with an English suffix (which is something that a crazy guy with a degree in Italian Linguistic as me would do!)

But where did it come the word “Appositly”? Here the explanation:

1. all the words ending with -MENTE usually end with -LY in English
2. apposita-mente = apposit-ly... (dropping the “a” because it's a vowel)

When did I discovered about this terrible mistake?

One day I was in Ben's car with Monique (Ben's colleague from work) during a lunch-break in South Melbourne. When I said a sentence using “appositly”, Monique turned the head asking “what??” and I repeated “yes, appositlyyy!”

She said: “but it's not a word”.

I said: “Bennn, what?! You never told me it was wrong!!”

He answered: “ohhh, you know, you say so many words!”

He was right ...appositly!

DAY 588: a card, a badge and the future

I miss Ben I really miss Ben a lot.

This morning I woke up with a lovely call from him, he called me because he received my Valentine's card. I was scared about the eventuality that he wouldn't have liked it, considering that as a "child card"... but Ben loved it! I'm so happy!

There were 3 pages in the card:

Today I started my master course at RAI (the Italian National broadcaster) I'm very happy about it because it will be an incredible full immersion in the world of new technologies, graphic and web design! 

But In this way I won't be able to chat with Ben in the morning :-( ... the only occasion will be on Sunday. Luckily when the time difference with Australia will be 8 Hours (around the end of March) we might be able to chat during my lunch break!

Today I acted as Ben because I need a badge to get in the RAI building (as Ben in Channel 7 building!), that's funny, how many coincidences!!! :-)

I'm happy but very scared as well, happy for what I'm going to study, sad because I miss him.

I'm also searching for a room in Florence, and it's hard to find one... I wish I could still stay with Ben and have our room and our life together... yes, sometimes we had problem... but I probably loved the problems as well ahah. 

I really wish one day it will happen what I wrote in the last page of the card.

DAY 221: Valentine's day

Last year I celebrated Valentine's day for the first time in my life! It was the first time for Ben as well (I'm pretty sure, and in any case there's no reason to be jealous of that :-).

I got up in the morning finding a bright yellow sunflowers bunch... but there was more, Ben bought me a little teddy bear and a big bar of toblerone as well.

Ben doesn't like to be too sweet instead of me, but when he acts in this way he is the best! He also bought me a card where there was a wheel to spin and see what was my reward for the day!

As present I did a little "book" to study italian, with all the typical italian colours on the cover and Ben's name on an Italian soccer jersey on the back.

The rest of the day was beautiful, we went to St. Kilda for a Festival and then we had dinner at Rococò, a very nice and yummy place.

I have lots of pictures which belongs to that day, photos taken in the bed with flowers and teddy bears!

This morning (February 2011) I'm looking for the card and the teddy Bear, to take them to Florence (Where I'm going to study for the next months)... however it seems as if they disappeared! What have you done mum?! ahah

DAY 183: My first night in Melbourne

Ben thought he would have seen me dressed in red.

I was dressed in red the second night that I was in Barcelona, but I don't think this was the main reason why he thought I would have been in red. Probably he saw many pictures of me on facebook with red clothes, or maybe just because red is the colour of passion, and I always act as a thunder of energy.

Actually I like that colour! So he wasn't totally wrong.

(a picture from Barcelona's nights)

However I wasn't wearing red that night, I had a grey fleece jumper and I wasn't as cute as I hoped after 22 hours of flight... I was a mix of “Matteo and Garbage”!

I was really really excited, I couldn't wait to see him again after our three nights together in Barcelona. It was a risk, it was a long jump, but there were too many coincidences... I deeply knew it that Ben was a good boy, I always trust my sensations and hopefully I was right.

Ben was scared about the possibility that I wouldn't like him... I had the same feeling some days before, but there were too many things that we both had in common to not give a chance and a sequel to the unforgettable Barcelona's nights.

At the airport Ben was waiting with his friends Rob and Glen. During the way back home It was amazing the scenery of the city in the night with all the skyscraper lighted, I had never been I an a metropolis like Melbourne, it was like a movie for me!

We went to Glen's to drink some wine and have a nice talk then straight to Ben's house. 

One of the first thing that I saw in there was the photo of me and Ben on the fridge... it was so cute, it was a picture of us from Barcelona. Soon After I had a shower to clean my “Bin flavour” and then I went in our room and I kissed him, I waited that moment so long!

It was from 2 hours that we wanted to do that, I can still remember a worried Ben while we were drinking at Glen, he was probably thinking “will he kiss me or won't he?” using an imaginary daisy in his fantasies.

If I had telepathic abilities I would have transferred in Ben's mind a little bit of relax “you of course!”.

We were both embarrassed but just one kiss helped to thaw out and re-start from the point where we stopped in Spain 6 months before.

DAY 585: More than words

This morning I spoke with Ben on skype.

I had a very good time, we don't use much skype, which makes these occasions special.

We had a 1 hour and 25 minutes session, but I wished it would have last forever! .... I know I shouldn't be soooo sweet, but it's Valentine's day tomorrow!

Sometimes after a big laugh or a funny moment we stayed in silence... not because we didn't know what to say, but because if those moments would have happened in reality there would have been a kiss or a hug.

When you don't have nothing else to say, and a cuddle worths more than words.

I miss Ben so much!

DAY 251 - 70 Days of Feelings

I was leaving Australia that day, at the end of the Summer.

I spent two and an half months in Melbourne... my time to come back to Italy was arrived, I had to come back to finish to write my thesis and achieve my graduation.

Before leaving I wanted to give Ben a present, I was planning something nice to let him a beautiful memory of me.

It had to be a “concrete” thing, something thoughtful, an art object with a deep meaning.

The image on the painting would have been the re-analysis of one of my older and most beautiful works I've ever done. Originally it was the last one of a painting series made of 9 pieces, the one where the passion triumphs.

But this time the meaning wasn't just an imaginary idea, it was something that really happened.

It was our story in a phrase: “70 days of feelings”... while in the back of the painting there was an explanation sentence “Once upon a time I had a feeling... and now I had 70 days of feelings”. (remember that we knew each other while there was the song "I gotta feeling")

Two hands, the passion, us.

I left the painting over the bed, standing on the wall, ready to surprise Ben as soon as he opened the door of our room. He really liked that :-)

Actually, I stayed 69 days and a few hours in Australia, however I couldn't write “69 days of feelings” the meaning would have changed in a very rude way! ahah