DAY 576: Moments like this

I feel so depressed... sometimes I suddenly fall in this condition, I miss so much Ben that I couldn't think about anything else. I'm trying to keep my mind busy, but it doesn't work well, I just want to hug him.
And what can I do? ...I eat! I eat whatever I find in the kitchen, not exactly the best way to slim and get ready for the next summer!
This morning I did a Lemon tarte with a meringue topping, it was one of the best dessert I ever had in Melbourne (at "Cosi"). I always wanted to make one for Ben, but I Never had the occasion :-(

I miss when Ben gave me a kiss early in the morning before going to work. 

He was so cute waring his suit, the best way to get up early in the morning.

Have a good day at work / buon lavoro!

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And I miss when Ben called me “cutie pie”...

but I'm sure he doesn't miss when I used to call him “big groundhog” ahah. He didn't like it... but I love it!

Ok now I should come back to reality and do something.