DAY 588: a card, a badge and the future

I miss Ben I really miss Ben a lot.

This morning I woke up with a lovely call from him, he called me because he received my Valentine's card. I was scared about the eventuality that he wouldn't have liked it, considering that as a "child card"... but Ben loved it! I'm so happy!

There were 3 pages in the card:

Today I started my master course at RAI (the Italian National broadcaster) I'm very happy about it because it will be an incredible full immersion in the world of new technologies, graphic and web design! 

But In this way I won't be able to chat with Ben in the morning :-( ... the only occasion will be on Sunday. Luckily when the time difference with Australia will be 8 Hours (around the end of March) we might be able to chat during my lunch break!

Today I acted as Ben because I need a badge to get in the RAI building (as Ben in Channel 7 building!), that's funny, how many coincidences!!! :-)

I'm happy but very scared as well, happy for what I'm going to study, sad because I miss him.

I'm also searching for a room in Florence, and it's hard to find one... I wish I could still stay with Ben and have our room and our life together... yes, sometimes we had problem... but I probably loved the problems as well ahah. 

I really wish one day it will happen what I wrote in the last page of the card.

DAY 251 - 70 Days of Feelings

I was leaving Australia that day, at the end of the Summer.

I spent two and an half months in Melbourne... my time to come back to Italy was arrived, I had to come back to finish to write my thesis and achieve my graduation.

Before leaving I wanted to give Ben a present, I was planning something nice to let him a beautiful memory of me.

It had to be a “concrete” thing, something thoughtful, an art object with a deep meaning.

The image on the painting would have been the re-analysis of one of my older and most beautiful works I've ever done. Originally it was the last one of a painting series made of 9 pieces, the one where the passion triumphs.

But this time the meaning wasn't just an imaginary idea, it was something that really happened.

It was our story in a phrase: “70 days of feelings”... while in the back of the painting there was an explanation sentence “Once upon a time I had a feeling... and now I had 70 days of feelings”. (remember that we knew each other while there was the song "I gotta feeling")

Two hands, the passion, us.

I left the painting over the bed, standing on the wall, ready to surprise Ben as soon as he opened the door of our room. He really liked that :-)

Actually, I stayed 69 days and a few hours in Australia, however I couldn't write “69 days of feelings” the meaning would have changed in a very rude way! ahah

DAY 1: Suddenly him

If love would be an image, now, after all that I went through, I think I saw it.

I was dancing, I turned my head and there was him.

He seemed taller and musclier than me, I felt like he appeared from nothing, sent by a miracle, during the hot Barcelona's summer, when “Toca's miracle” song (by Fragma) was one of the main discos anthem.

We spoke little time, like... 30 seconds ahah (People can easily make jokes about this and explain the short conversation with my bad English abilites) and then we kissed.

I hugged him gently and kissed his lips while in the background there was the song “I gotta feeling” by Black eyed peas. That song would have become “our” song.

I didn't even want to go to Barcelona because I wasn't in a good mood, luckily my friend Yuri convinced me very well and we had the biggest short holiday I ever had in my whole life, I've never experienced something like that since a long time, from 2004 to be precise.

Ben is Australian, he was in Barcelona for holidays as well, but for him it was just a little part of his trip all over the world.

It was an unexpected thunder in my life, somebody would call it “love at first sight”.

Destiny sometimes can be surprising, because after that night our story wasn't finished, it was just the begin.

DAY 452: Just a little question

I asked Ben:

“which one do you think is the best day that you have spent with me”?

He said that it was when I came back in May, during the route to the airport when he came to pick me up around 5am. He was so excited that he couldn't sleep the night, and driving on the freeway in the middle of night was electrifying.

DAY 316: The return

After 2 months spent in Italy studying hard to achieve my degree I came back to Melbourne.

When the airplane landed I knew Ben was already at the airport waiting even it was 5.30 am.

I collected my baggage and I was ready to go to the quarantine controls (in Australia they are very inflexible with controls!) hoping that my Italian biscuits weren't “toxic”.

The Krumiri (the name of the biscuits from Casale Monferrato, my Italian hometown) went into a strange machinery whereas a man similar to a Japanese scientist was looking at a digital screen.

Everything was all right, the high percent of butter wasn't a problem for the quarantine desk!

I put my hands on the luggage trolley and I started to run towards the automatic door,

“go Matteo go!” it was the voice in my head!

The door opened and... crush!

The trolley bumped against the corner of the door!

Ben saw me, he smiled. The first image he had of me was my clumsiness become real! Then I reached and kissed him, finally after waiting long two months.

It was the begin of the second and biggest part of my story with Ben.