DAY 585: More than words

This morning I spoke with Ben on skype.

I had a very good time, we don't use much skype, which makes these occasions special.

We had a 1 hour and 25 minutes session, but I wished it would have last forever! .... I know I shouldn't be soooo sweet, but it's Valentine's day tomorrow!

Sometimes after a big laugh or a funny moment we stayed in silence... not because we didn't know what to say, but because if those moments would have happened in reality there would have been a kiss or a hug.

When you don't have nothing else to say, and a cuddle worths more than words.

I miss Ben so much!

DAY 251 - 70 Days of Feelings

I was leaving Australia that day, at the end of the Summer.

I spent two and an half months in Melbourne... my time to come back to Italy was arrived, I had to come back to finish to write my thesis and achieve my graduation.

Before leaving I wanted to give Ben a present, I was planning something nice to let him a beautiful memory of me.

It had to be a “concrete” thing, something thoughtful, an art object with a deep meaning.

The image on the painting would have been the re-analysis of one of my older and most beautiful works I've ever done. Originally it was the last one of a painting series made of 9 pieces, the one where the passion triumphs.

But this time the meaning wasn't just an imaginary idea, it was something that really happened.

It was our story in a phrase: “70 days of feelings”... while in the back of the painting there was an explanation sentence “Once upon a time I had a feeling... and now I had 70 days of feelings”. (remember that we knew each other while there was the song "I gotta feeling")

Two hands, the passion, us.

I left the painting over the bed, standing on the wall, ready to surprise Ben as soon as he opened the door of our room. He really liked that :-)

Actually, I stayed 69 days and a few hours in Australia, however I couldn't write “69 days of feelings” the meaning would have changed in a very rude way! ahah

DAY 1: Suddenly him

If love would be an image, now, after all that I went through, I think I saw it.

I was dancing, I turned my head and there was him.

He seemed taller and musclier than me, I felt like he appeared from nothing, sent by a miracle, during the hot Barcelona's summer, when “Toca's miracle” song (by Fragma) was one of the main discos anthem.

We spoke little time, like... 30 seconds ahah (People can easily make jokes about this and explain the short conversation with my bad English abilites) and then we kissed.

I hugged him gently and kissed his lips while in the background there was the song “I gotta feeling” by Black eyed peas. That song would have become “our” song.

I didn't even want to go to Barcelona because I wasn't in a good mood, luckily my friend Yuri convinced me very well and we had the biggest short holiday I ever had in my whole life, I've never experienced something like that since a long time, from 2004 to be precise.

Ben is Australian, he was in Barcelona for holidays as well, but for him it was just a little part of his trip all over the world.

It was an unexpected thunder in my life, somebody would call it “love at first sight”.

Destiny sometimes can be surprising, because after that night our story wasn't finished, it was just the begin.